What Is Hip

So on December 1 2011...I recieved a total hip replacement .  Its been 22 days and I am still homebound. With walking restrictions,   I get to shuffle along on a walker with neon green tennis balls on its legs. I can not yet negotiate the stairs up to the studio so I have been just hanging around downstairs , accepting the love and grace from friends and family ...and RESTING

So a few days ago I asked a freind to go into the studio and forage for my watercolors (which I don't know how to use), bright colorful inks and some flimsy watercolor brushes that I havent used in twenty years.?  I took over the kitchen table like I used to do back in the day...And I swear, out of boredom, maybe desperation because I am in pain and frankly a lonley temporarily crippled person...I STARTED TO PAINT FOR NO REASON.

So far I have five or six bad paintings about pain and legs and faces and aching and throbbing and who knows what..I want to do 50 more but I think I have to do one or two at a time then collapse in exaustion. 

Who would have guessed that this major surgery to ultimatly fix my sweet sore hip would provide me with the opportunity to create lousy art, prompted by no one, commissioned by no one, not intended to sell or to display..Just for me ...for my own sake..for my own expression, to release some of the frustration and swirlly physical and spiritual pain that is part of the healing process.

One more time I find myself blessed after I admit total defeat.  Can't walk (yet), can't dance (yet).don't have much to give bercause I am tired, resting, healing...I give up..can't do anything...yet as a resultI  find myself making ridiculous paintings I never planned on  simply for myself  ? 



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[Debra]

Like Frida Kahlo ... love to you, Debra